We think life is meaning less
In order to find meaning we work/ school 6-6 everyday Because :
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Birth
I sat watching my sister holding her new born baby I've been with her the past 6 months from no signs to all the signs. From a tiny bump to a major bump. To movements every 5 days to movements every 5 minutes and through all the questions, and waiting and sitting and difficulties all I could see is that love begins our walk. Death I went to a funeral the other other other weekend and the same could be said. Why do we mourn and cry over a past life? Why do we gather at their sick bed in hospital sending flowers to brighten their day? Why do we visit the grave stone when the spirit is far far away. And the same can be said for death it is love that must end it all. In the beginning as in the end all that matters is love Love for your craft, love for your people, Love for your country and for beauty , peace and joy. Love is the heat in the oven and the cake that bakes within. It is the icing and the dirty plate we have to clean. Love divides the cake into 40 so that all can have a piece. Love is the knife and the spoon we use to eat. In the beginning as in the end all that matters is love. Alas it is then when your are at the end of life; alone and surrounded by all the things you have accumulated. And when all the living beings leave your bedside and you are left with brightly colored dead flowers and empty cards. Alone you stare hard at your wordly trophies and medals and feel empty. And alone you get onto your knees and pray at last for Gods company, In the beginning as in the end all that matters is love In the beginning as in the end all that matters is love In the beginning In the end Love em Sometimes I look back into the past and wonder who was perched on my shoulder?
That time when I wanted to leave that job or wanted to take that trip ? Was it devil or angel whispering into my ears? That moment when your weighing your options and asking your dog , cat and flowers for advise. Talking yourself in and out of decisions. and wondering weather it is God, the devil or you having all the ideas. Then I realized the answer is simple in what ever I do if the decision is filtered with love it is of God. Even when leaving somewhere your thoughts should be centered on the great lessons you've learnt and the bright future ahead not of all the negative things you will be leaving behind, If you look back and filter your decisions and thoughts with a lens of love; you will realize that love was always the simplest and logical option. Which we often don't choose. So as you walk on comb through life with love. It doesn't mean that all your decisions will be right but at least they will be good. em..:) We fear free fall because holding on is easier that letting go.
What we have clutched in our hands is here, present . We can put a name to it, a description and we already know how it feels. We have reacted and adjusted to it. Its comfortable even if it hurts; we are numb to its pain or its joy because we are already used to it. Being stationary is against nature Newton proclaims that every object in a sate of uniform motion remains in that state of motion unless acted on by an external force. We are already moving but why in uniformity? Why do we resist the external and internal pushes and pulls in the name of "consistency " and " progress.? Instead of calling it being stuck we call it : reliable , dependable, always here. Be still and know that I am God Psalm 46:10 Being still in this sense is exactly like letting go, surrendering and free falling with God. Letting go of your own flow and movements and surrendering to His. Let go , move on , find a new adventure and breath in a different atmosphere. Why do you tie the ball and chain to your own feet when you are actually already free? Aaaaah The ball and chain (the more obvious the better) gives you those timely excuses why your are always late, too tired, always busy and never available? Surrender means being free to flow with His river. think of the falling rock or the flowing river. Where it goes, what it meets, what meets it and where it ends up and Lo an behold the big question "why?" Why, What , How , Where and who are not the point of life Your eyes are closed and you let go;You do not know where you are going to land or if you will and at all You do not know when you will finally fly or if you will fly at all. That is not the point . The point is that when you are in the air the breeze brushing past your face and the rush of uncertainty beating through your heart your are truly alive. Living vicariously through the confusion and disorder of the universe. Just be Just do Just give Just receive Surrender Be still and let go Free fall em..:) aaah SO much to do!!
Don't we all sometimes get bogged down with the lists and lists of things we have to do or want to do or should have done running around in our heads. It gets exhausting. I sometimes wake up like I did this morning with so many things going through my mind that I felt an unshakable despair weighted down on my chest. I've gone through this so often that I have a remedy that can reverse this feeling of doom in under an hour. Let them loose! Let all those thoughts keep running; we spend a lot of energy sometimes trying to keep thoughts away even when we know they are going to come back. I just give them space to run around for awhile. Just sitting or lying down I think them over and over again. I don't do anything else with my hands or my body I just sit and think and think about them and surprisingly after awhile I start to see patterns. The same thoughts keep coming back almost in the same sequence. Sort of like the turn table at a Chinese restaurant. The 1st time round the table is going so fast I simply watch it go by. Then by the 10th cycle it starts slowing down and I begin acknowledging the different thoughts and ideas, dreams,plans, to do lists that my mind has served me. Then it slows down further so that I can acknowledge and start making decisions about what to do with each particular dish. And finally it slows down completely so that I can pick up the dish and either serve it, put it away, throw it, refrigerate etc.. For example.... There is a class I need to schedule that keeps bugging me. I decide ill have it on Wednesday evening at 6pm, I research the location and plan my route, then I put it on my calendar; set a reminder and hence literally taking the dish off the table.......and so on and so forth.... this mental exercise may take me 5 mins, 30 minutes or the whole day depending on what back log I have let pile up. As the turntable empties I feel calm returning and realize its going to be OK, I release the past, the future and eternity and stay in the present. Don't worry in our crazy modern world this is bound to happen at least once a week even to the most peaceful, organised souls; and it's OK. But when your mind is cluttered it is important to find the time and space to let your mind file things away. All those thoughts, plans, worries, dreams , to do lists are draining your present mental energy causing lack of focus, joy and peace. This translates to.... The way you treat yourself ;eating, exercise. happiness... The way you treat others :politeness, respect, listening, caring, love.... The work that you do : quality, joy, satisfaction.... SO despair not! Sit down and let the thoughts run around your head like children in a supermarket collecting all the toys and sweets they can see. Then take all your children and merchandise and go to the till. Here you you must decide whether to buy them (including that chocolate hidden in little toms pocket or telling him to put it back...:))) You can't stay in the supermarket forever......and in light of eternity its really not that important. Em..:) |